Nine-Eleven

What to do after you keep tossing and turning in bed and can't get back to sleep? You think you will if you just lay there and not think then the mind just starts going from there and before you know it, one thing leads to another. Then you realize that there are a million things that need to be done and you only have this one day and not even a full 24 hours and you feel that every one of them needs to be done before you go back to bed again. So what do you do?

The clock says it's almost five in the morning. Not bad. Which means I did have a good rest so it's time I get up and start the day. And today is my honey's birthday-47 years. Can you just imagine how time flies! We've gone thru puberty, stage where we tried hard each day to make ourselves fit into a society, into time where we finally build our own empire and instill into our little ones as much as what we learned from the world out there, to convince ourselves that we are going to get thru all these after all. In our case though, we don't have those little ones screaming around, but one thing for sure. My honey has a big heart and I know you will agree too. He is such a loving son thru and thru and I'm not just saying that he looks after his mom just because he is the only son around her.  I've never seen such a bond! Not just your normal mother and son relationship. It's more like a friendship that has grown over the years of struggles, pain and victory. He is a such a genuine person who remembers and makes it a point that if you are a part of his life, he will share part of him, his daily life, his time, where ever you are, no matter how far, whoever you are. He is very inspiring and believes in people, the way they are, and what they want to become. Very forgiving and so understanding, good dry sense of humor and I'm so glad the two of us fit together. We may not have that bond of 47 years, but I know that I cherish each moment of each day with him.

Time flies, and we are only given one shot in this world. Today is all we have right now so what is it that you want to do to make that day a very fulfilling one for yourself? My feeling are mixed with emotions and for what's going thru my head, I can't even write them in composition. It's the nine-eleven syndrome, I guess but it's more than that. It's ny honey's birthday and it may also be not a good day for someone else. So I must be very blessed to get to where I am right now- had my share of struggles in life, got out of my little box that almost suffocated me to death, having this another chance to make it a better life, waking up to another day to get my stuff done, another nine eleven to celebrate my honey's birthday and to remember how much precious life can be if we just embrace it. To all the people still mourning out there, may God bless you... And to my honey ko, happy, happy birthday!